We have hit a hard spot. My husband and I. Every few days we fight. It is getting on my nerves. All I ever hear from him is "I never get what I want." There is no 'I' in team. Appearantly there is no team in our marriage.
We didn't have any real photos taken of the two of us on our vacation like I wanted. Why? Because I got stuck running around all day getting things hubby forgot, couldn't enjoy our convention, and then I get back and can't find him. ARGH!!! If you are going to be somewhere without a phone, stay your butt put! I can't be chasing around a shadow. So I went back to the room and cried at a dumb chick-flick. I was so mad at him I deadbolted the door, just wanted to be alone.
Also, this covention was his idea. Something he wanted. I didn't want to go. Why? Oh lets see, the holidays, a birthday, and all the usual money subjects. I am worried about buying the kids a fair amount of presents. My mom wants to buy the kids some insane train set that you can't get here, and wanted me to scour the Long Beach area for it. Yeah, no.
I feel more alone now than I havae in a long time. Everything I seem to do, I do alone. He spends time on the computer, in the bedroom, out for hours, whatever. I am left to fend for myself with the kids. Not to mention dinner, breakfast, and lunches for the whole family. I bring husband dinner at the computer. Last night I gave it to him and all I got was "not now". Huh? No dinner? Whatever. It is getting old. I just hit my max this weekend when he did what he wanted and didn't even think to look for me. Maybe I would be in the hotel room. No, just 3 hours he got to enjoy himself and I cried. Normal. Or what is becoming normal.
Right now normal sucks.... Sorry for being so down.
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Thursday, November 29, 2007
My mind on vacation - needing a photographer
How often do you get nice pictures of just the 2 of you? Usually it is kids, or your engagement or wedding. Not much between. Blech! I want some real pictures of my husband and I. My wedding photos SUCKED!!!! (And the jerk is still advertising- I want to place an ad saying don't hire this guy.) Cest la vie.
Well we are visiting Long Beach next week (my mind is already packed and ready to go - I don't want to be here at work now). Back to the photographer: we went to this place for the third time in 18 months and I would love to dress up for dinner and have some pictures taken of just us. We have a book full of pictures from just this year with the two kiddles. But usually one of us (if not both) are behind the camera. There is one picture of me that I like and multiple of DH from this year. Needless to say I want MORE!
So I have looked at lots of photographers, but being so close to LA, they are for actors or weddings and therefore a small fortune. Some of them are really "unique" looking and not the classic look we are. I would love some black and white pics, and if at all possible have my dad scan them into the computer for us to make a book of our trip.
But as a mental notes: I still need to get hubby's clothes together. I need to buy a couple of new suitcases. I need to actually PACK our clothes, jackets, equipment (cameras) and coffee. Yes I am an official coffee addict. I also have to get the clothes and toys for the kids packed. That is never ever fun. It is the "what is the weather like today" question. They are really easy though since they are going to grandma's house. No they won't be totally spoiled, yet they think they will be. Oops, I forgot about their advent calendars. Need to pack those for grandma's house.
Is it really almost December? The holidays are coming and yet I feel like it should be still summer. Our weather is cold and dry yet we are worried about the chance of rain. Yeah confusing. Fire warnings one day, possible showers the next. I don't know how to dress them until I wake up in the morning and watch the news...
Once I get back from the trip I will post pictures and give details on the trip. Am I on the 405 yet?
Well we are visiting Long Beach next week (my mind is already packed and ready to go - I don't want to be here at work now). Back to the photographer: we went to this place for the third time in 18 months and I would love to dress up for dinner and have some pictures taken of just us. We have a book full of pictures from just this year with the two kiddles. But usually one of us (if not both) are behind the camera. There is one picture of me that I like and multiple of DH from this year. Needless to say I want MORE!
So I have looked at lots of photographers, but being so close to LA, they are for actors or weddings and therefore a small fortune. Some of them are really "unique" looking and not the classic look we are. I would love some black and white pics, and if at all possible have my dad scan them into the computer for us to make a book of our trip.
But as a mental notes: I still need to get hubby's clothes together. I need to buy a couple of new suitcases. I need to actually PACK our clothes, jackets, equipment (cameras) and coffee. Yes I am an official coffee addict. I also have to get the clothes and toys for the kids packed. That is never ever fun. It is the "what is the weather like today" question. They are really easy though since they are going to grandma's house. No they won't be totally spoiled, yet they think they will be. Oops, I forgot about their advent calendars. Need to pack those for grandma's house.
Is it really almost December? The holidays are coming and yet I feel like it should be still summer. Our weather is cold and dry yet we are worried about the chance of rain. Yeah confusing. Fire warnings one day, possible showers the next. I don't know how to dress them until I wake up in the morning and watch the news...
Once I get back from the trip I will post pictures and give details on the trip. Am I on the 405 yet?
Monday, November 26, 2007
EaGLeS - not a typo
"You can't soar with eagles, when you are surrounded by turkeys"
It was on a beat up old t-shirt my dad had when I was little, yet the saying rang true. And it is downright true for me today.
EaGLeS is actually an acronym of my initials: E.G.L.S. (if my name was hypenated - still an ongoing debate in our house). And the "a" and "e" both belong in those respected names. Weird. I got the nick-name as a munchking, since I was the leader of the "terrible three" (me, my BFF Amy and Andrea). I don't know how I became the leader, or how I fall into leadership positions yet today, but it is just life.
A bit more about me: It is hard to believe that I have been married for about a year and 1/2 and DH and I still don't know if I should take his name. He doesn't care, it is his parents.
We are about to take a 3 day vacation, to a spot on our HM. 3rd time in the 18 months we will have been there. I wish we went somewhere else. No flying allowed though.
Funny thinking about the quote above. ^^^ I don't fly. Hate it. Get really sick. It may be what is inhibiting my little world expanding. I think this will be a start.
It was on a beat up old t-shirt my dad had when I was little, yet the saying rang true. And it is downright true for me today.
EaGLeS is actually an acronym of my initials: E.G.L.S. (if my name was hypenated - still an ongoing debate in our house). And the "a" and "e" both belong in those respected names. Weird. I got the nick-name as a munchking, since I was the leader of the "terrible three" (me, my BFF Amy and Andrea). I don't know how I became the leader, or how I fall into leadership positions yet today, but it is just life.
A bit more about me: It is hard to believe that I have been married for about a year and 1/2 and DH and I still don't know if I should take his name. He doesn't care, it is his parents.
We are about to take a 3 day vacation, to a spot on our HM. 3rd time in the 18 months we will have been there. I wish we went somewhere else. No flying allowed though.
Funny thinking about the quote above. ^^^ I don't fly. Hate it. Get really sick. It may be what is inhibiting my little world expanding. I think this will be a start.
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