Experiences

We have hit a hard spot. My husband and I. Every few days we fight. It is getting on my nerves. All I ever hear from him is "I never get what I want." There is no 'I' in team. Appearantly there is no team in our marriage.

We didn't have any real photos taken of the two of us on our vacation like I wanted. Why? Because I got stuck running around all day getting things hubby forgot, couldn't enjoy our convention, and then I get back and can't find him. ARGH!!! If you are going to be somewhere without a phone, stay your butt put! I can't be chasing around a shadow. So I went back to the room and cried at a dumb chick-flick. I was so mad at him I deadbolted the door, just wanted to be alone.

Also, this covention was his idea. Something he wanted. I didn't want to go. Why? Oh lets see, the holidays, a birthday, and all the usual money subjects. I am worried about buying the kids a fair amount of presents. My mom wants to buy the kids some insane train set that you can't get here, and wanted me to scour the Long Beach area for it. Yeah, no.

I feel more alone now than I havae in a long time. Everything I seem to do, I do alone. He spends time on the computer, in the bedroom, out for hours, whatever. I am left to fend for myself with the kids. Not to mention dinner, breakfast, and lunches for the whole family. I bring husband dinner at the computer. Last night I gave it to him and all I got was "not now". Huh? No dinner? Whatever. It is getting old. I just hit my max this weekend when he did what he wanted and didn't even think to look for me. Maybe I would be in the hotel room. No, just 3 hours he got to enjoy himself and I cried. Normal. Or what is becoming normal.
Right now normal sucks.... Sorry for being so down.